Friday, December 24, 2010

Randoms thoughts

The first time i heard the word 'Juncture', i laughed at the person for speaking bad English,smh!

I think it's kinda weird that my grandma, mum and I are the same blood group and genotype. I know we're family and bla bla bla but I've asked around and it doesn't seem common... so yeah, weird.

No matter how/ where you were born and raised, God has blessed us ALL with consciences so there's absolutely no excuse for evil. I say this cos of ritualists, the genocide, Jos crisis and what have you. There is no excuse for evil, no matter what.

You know the way some cute babies end up... well... not so cute and not-so-cute babies end up really pretty? I sometimes wonder if Obj was a REALLY cute baby.
1Naira ko? Why lie? #NowSinging weda na 1Million, weda na 1Billion, baby you got me... baby you got me :-)

Niran ( lani )  is one of reasons i gave my life to Christ. I know I've never told you but seeing someone i 'know' blog publicly about his love for and relationship with God did wonders to my soul. I know God only used you but I'm grateful He did and it's one of the reasons I started blogging too, in faith that someone, somewhere out there will be blessed and find Christ. Merry Christmas :-*

Beht it doesn't werk fer me when people talk like this o!

I've asked this twice on twitter and i ask again "Was Leonard Da Vinci alive when Jesus and His disciples had the last supper?" Why do we keep letting bombaclats play with our minds? Why are we quick to believe contradictions?

There's this cute black reporter on CNN with brown eyes and pink lips *cough* I don't even know his name but let's just say I'm in crush #OkBye!

Where is Jamelia? Where is Dido?? And where on earth is Babyface???

Tracy Chapman in Mountains of things sang "I'll be working for somebody else until I'm in my grave". And I agree cos even self employed people are not exactly the bosses of themselves. They work FOR their customers by  providing their needs and the customers in turn pay their salaries, one purchased item at a time. I think!

In acceptance to one of her awards at the AMAs, Carrie Underwood said something like "God has been really good to me and I'll spend the rest of my life wondering why!". Well, I say "God has been really good to me and I'll spend the rest of my life praising Him!"

Merry Christmas guys, have a wonderful new year, be a blessing and have loads of fun

Friday, December 17, 2010

Ready To Make Nice

In my mind, I've forgiven her
In my mind, I've let go
In reality, I've forgiven him - not her
In reality, I know it's all in the past and I should move on already

In my mind, I'm super human and nothing can hurt my feelings
In my mind, I thought knew I didn't care what happened and even felt sorry for her
In reality, I've stopped 'convincing' God that I've forgiven her
In reality, I don't feel sorry for her, I wish her ill!

In Not Ready To Make Nice, Dixie Chicks sing my mind when they go
Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I'm still waiting...

I know I preach love and forgiveness and happiness and all the merry-go-happy things my my heart can think of wherever I find myself, even to those who don't care to listen. But believe me, I know it's hard. Especially when you've convinced yourself that you've moved on only to realize that you just buried the hurt and unforgiveness somewhere in your heart, piled stuff on it and pretended to move.

It seems like I'm blabbing but my point is, people WILL hurt you but it is up to you to set yourself free by forgiving them. "FORGIVENESS IS FOR YOU!"
I haven't forgiven, no lies... but I'm ready to make nice. I'm working on it, I'm praying on it and believing God for the strength and grace to do so cos I've realized that I can't do it on my own.
Are you struggling with unforgiveness? Even if it's towards yourself for something you did or failed to do? Let go, let God and in the end, forgive!

*Colossians 3:13 Be tolerant with one another and forgive one another whenever one of you has a complaint against someone else. You MUST forgive one another just as the Lord has forgiven you.


Monday, December 13, 2010

Come walk with me

I wrote this a couple of months ago and it was supposed to be my first post but I was scared of being judged so I just left it where it was with the others. But this is MY blog and I'll post whatever I want/feel and hope that somehow, in the midst of the confusion and lack of rhyme someone, somewhere out there will find relief. Enjoy.

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Sometimes, I feel like I'm floating!
How did I get here?
Who are these people?
I'm looking but I can't see...
I'm listening but I can't hear.
My mind is wandering all over the earth,
searching for something I don't think it'll ever find
cos I don't  even know what it is.

Is it love?
I found it once but it didn't fill me
I've got these fabulous family and the craziest, bestest friends
but they can't quench the thirst.
I tried drinking and smoking
but that lifestyle didn't soothe me.
So, I've turned to God

I've given Him my all because I know that He gives peace beyond human understanding.
Because Romans 8:28 says '...all things work together for good to them that love God...'
Because He'll never leave me nor forsake me
Because 'He gave His only Begotten Son' and will send my enemies flying in 7 directions
I love Him and will do my best to live right cos He's the only sure thing I know.

God has blessed me beyond my wildest expectations and give me the assurance
that He'll take care of me if I let go and let Him.

So, here I am,
barer than I came from my mother's womb.
Scared as hell cos I don't know what tribulations to expect
but sure as can be that as long as I stay on this path,
I can walk through the valley of the shadow of death
and nothing will by any means harm me.
Please take my hand and join me on this walk
filled with life changing experiences.

* Mark 8: 38 Whosoever therefore shall be ashamed of me and of my words in this adulterous and sinful generation; of him also shall the Son of man be ashamed, when He cometh in the glory of His Father with the holy angels.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Thank You!

It was a great night, the show was amazing and a girl from our modelling agency won Miss Benue yet again. We were all ecstatic and couldn't wait to go back to school. On our way out though, we got seperated by the crowd.

There was a stampede and people were screaming, pushing, falling, loosing control and I couldn't find myself. Yes, I couldn't find myself. I didn't know where my arms were, couldn't feel my feet and couldn't turn back to wait in the seats. If you ask me, I'm pretty sure I was moved by the crowd in what ever direction they were going because I can't remember walking. 

All of a sudden, I felt someone grab my hand from wherever it was and in a brief second, I looked him. I didn't panick because it was a protective, warm grab like a parent's when they are about to cross the road with a kid. I looked at his face but I was too busy trying to get rescued that I didn't 'see' him.

He guided me through the stampede smoothly and gracefully. It was like everyone knew my hero had come to rescue me and they simply made way for us.
As we approached the doors though, he let go! My hero, my guardian angel let go when we got to the light at the end of the tunnel and I couldn't understand why. I looked around but couldn't find him and it didn't help that I didn't know what he looked like.

Instead of enjoying the fresh air and relief that hit me as I walked out the door, I worried about never being able to say 'Thank you' to him. Then it hit me, he let go on purpose!
I'll never understand why but it reminds me of God and His love for us. We don't always ask for His saving grace but He gives it to us all the time and even when the world is falling on us and we forget to pray, He takes our hands and leads us the right way. And you know the best part? He doesn't wait for us to say 'Thank You' before doing it all over again.

God loves and blesses us despite our faults and without our 'Thank Yous'
because He doesn't need our gratitude to be God. 
He is God and His mercies endure forever.

*If you ever feel like words are not enough to express your gratitude then be an agent of God's love to everyone you see because at the end of the day, the best way to preach the gospel is to live the gospel.